I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in an extended while, I don’t feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I would be this for the incorrect reason; as an easy way to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. acim teacher What I’m about to talk about was not yet clear during those times; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have allow you to see inside. Don’t want it troubling your brain, won’t you allow it be?” This confused me as I possibly could not consider anything that I had stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in visiting the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere with its residents’peace of mind, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief will be (has been?) released.
You will find other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.